It has been a very long time since I have posted to my ChaoticFat blog about being fat. I got so sidetracked with other things in my life and just left my weight to fend for itself and as usually, a child left alone will indulge.

My food intake isn’t focused, I am not exercising and have gained a great deal of weight. It’s really very pathetic. But, I’m motivated to change my ways and get back on a track and focus most of my energy on getting healthy again.

So get ready for this ride; as always, I will be brutally honest about my progress and all of the crazy things that happen when you are obese and trying to lose weight (without surgery).

As always, be well
CF

I could ask what the hell the belt is for, but it does seem to break that mess up a bit.

So relax, close your eyes and imagine what is going on in the back of that outfit; she has got to be ass out or should I say BIG ASS OUT. This is one of those obesity side effects where you think you can wear anything…NOT! And look at the woman behind her; I can hear her saying “Lawd, help this child.”

I have to say though that I am proud of her in that she has accepted her fat and doesn’t give a shit what anyone else thinks about her.  You Go Girl!

As always, be well

CF

My first reaction was, did you just call me a man? My first thought was, damn I have really let myself disintegrate into nothingness. I guess I have accepted my fat so much that I am not seeing myself as I really am; my body image is hella distorted and right now my self-esteem is really fu@ked up. I really just stopped caring once I got to a certain level of obesity; I assumed I would be this way for the rest of my life and being invisible to the world wasn’t that bad. Except, you are not really invisible…hey, someone just thought I was a man.

My heart is breaking and I must do something. I have to change my trajectory, find another life path because this one is no longer working for me. I mean come on, he called me “SIR” twice and didn’t really realize the mistake until I said something. My ego can’t handle that; I used to look like this (pic on left) and now I look like this (pic on right). It’s tragic!

As always, be well
CF

Here we go again; another Brit with a dumb ass television show to make fat women feel unworthy of love. This charming UK-based television show is called, Three Fat Brides, One Thin Dress.

In each episodes of Three Fat Brides, One Thin Dress, three brides-to-be have just eight weeks to transform their appearance and well-being, with the prize of the wedding dress of her dreams for the bride who has the greatest success.

But how will they cope with the added pressure of Gillian McKeith (show host) on the wedding scene? Will they make it to their big day a few sizes smaller? Or will they want to call the whole thing off?

Of course women would rather call their wedding off than be fat. Of course fat women don’t deserve love. Of course this is a bunch of bullshit and it really pisses me off. I am so tired of society telling me that because I am fat, I am not worthy of the same love and happiness as a skinny person. I’ve got news for you idiots, there are a lot of skinny women out there who are seriously miserable being thin for a variety of reasons. And what does it say about the self-esteem of the women who go on these shows? Because it seems to me, if you don’t already love yourself, losing weight to fit into a wedding dress is not going to do the trick.

Love and beauty are in the eye of the beholder; love isn’t real nor does it last when it is based solely on the way a person looks. Being admired for your looks is flattering, but if it’s the only reason you love me, that’s a complete turnoff. If you can’t love me for everything that I am, then you simply don’t love me.

If you can’t love every curve and bulge on my body, then I don’t want you. Fat women, and women in general need to stop waiting to be chosen and go out there and choose. And once you’ve made your choice, then go on some dumb ass television show to compete for the wedding dress of your dreams in the size that you are, not some size that society thinks you should be.

As always, be well
CF

I read this over at Big Fat Blog. I bet the fat haters choked on their arugula salad (which I love btw) over this. Many fat people have known this for a long time; all fatties aren’t striving to be skinny, some are just striving to be actively healthy. Some fatties aren’t ashamed of being fat and love themselves unconditionally. Many skinny people can’t understand that which is a shame, because you don’t have to be skinny to be healthy and beautiful.

Hmmm…imagine that!

Landmark US Study on Healthy Fat People

News rang out from coast to coast here in the US – even making the front page of The Oregonian – that fat people can be healthy. Kate Harding called in the Duh Truck. The study comes from an Albert Einstein College of Medicine study led by researcher MaryFran Sowers and appeared in Mondays edition of Archives of Internal Medicine. From the AP piece:

A new study suggests that a surprising number of overweight people — about half — have normal blood pressure and cholesterol levels, while an equally startling number of trim people suffer from some of the ills associated with obesity.

Landmark US Study on Healthy Fat People | Big Fat Blog

As always, be well

CF