ChoaticFat: Weight-344.4 (+2.4) First Goal-50lbs.

I know, I know! I am going backwards. That 2.4lbs that I lost by the skin of my teeth last month is baaaaaaaack. It’s all me—I am eating too much, I am not sleeping enough, and I am not exercising enough.

For me, I know it all stems from me not getting enough sleep and feeling dead tired all the time; even when exercising. Sometimes I have to stop not because I am out of breath, but because I am worn out (drained, spent) or whatever you want to call it. I just don’t have the energy I need to burn off as many calories as I need to in a day.

I am determined to survive this complication. My resolve is still strong, but I am weakening (cracking around the edges) a bit; I can feel it coming at me full blast. BUT I WILL KEEP TRYING UNTIL THE DAY I AM NO MORE.

As always, be well CF “Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in feeling creates love.” — Lao Tzu Watch me on Youtube

How Chaotic is my Fat? — Weight: 342, To Lose: 202

Whew! I thought for sure that I had gained 20lbs, at least that’s the way it felt. I haven’t been eating well, but I have been walking that treadmill consistently. I lost 2.4lbs and I can’t really complain about that. Although, I expended a lot of energy for those 2.4lbs. In my head it should be more, but I have to remember that it has only been a month since I started exercising and I did only start out doing 5 minutes per session. But, I am up to 30 minutes per session now…Yea!!! So I’ll take my 2.4lbs and run with it, literally. I think I am going to add 1 or 2 minutes of running to the treadmill and 5 or 10 minutes of elliptical machine to the game next week. I also read a blurb in Real Simple about jumping rope and its benefits; which reminds me of jumping DoubleDutch as a little girl.—That was always so much fun.

Well everyone, wish me luck and I will see you back here next month on August 6th for my next weigh-in.

Good luck to you on your journey. :)

Ps: I saw my doctor yesterday and we discussed my sleeping problems and she is sending me to do a sleep study to determine whether I have sleep apnea or not.

As always, be well CF “Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in feeling creates love.” — Lao Tzu Watch me on Youtube

30 Magic Minutes

Today I hit 30 minutes on the treadmill like it was nothing. I usually peek at the time to see where I am and how far I have to go, when I peeked today the timer read 21+ minutes—I was feeling no pain. I covered the time and kept going until I reached 30 minutes. I was watching Serena’s Wimbledon match and I believe her determination to win even though she was injured motivated me to keep moving.

Here is a little treat from the Wiz to make you smile. It starts out slow, so keep watching.

 Enjoy, :)

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As always, be well CF “Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in feeling creates love.” — Lao Tzu Watch me on Youtube

Just Amazing

I exercised a lot as a young girl, so I know the benefits of exercise and the way endorphines make you feel. However, I forgot about how your body begins to change and how the way you feel about yourself instantly morphs into wanting to take care of the body you’re living in. This is the third week of my 5 Week Treadmill Challenge and I hit my goal of doing 25 minutes yesterday— I almost didn’t go to the gym at all; I was feeling cranky and a little depressed, but the fact that I feel better about myself propelled me forward. I refused to fall back into the same old pattern of just walking past the gym on my way to the car. It was hard not making an excuse to keep walking but, I don’t want to give up this feeling and I’m holding tight with everything i’ve got.  Continue reading

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In celebration of my first 20 minutes on the treadmill…

I give you Fantasia. Some people love her, some hate her, I happen to be one who adores her. She sang this song last night at the 2007 Tony Awards and whenever I hear this song it helps me in my conviction to lose this weight and believe once again in my beauty.

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As always, be well CF “Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in feeling creates love.” — Lao Tzu Watch me on Youtube

How Chaotic is my Fat? — Weight: 344.4, To Lose: 204.4

This is my first posted weigh-in. I usually step on the scale on the 6th of each month and post it in the “How Chaotic Is My Fat?” page, quietly. Today however, I am so proud of myself, that I want to say it out loud. I LOST 7.4LBS. since my last weigh-in in May. I am so encouraged by this loss.  Yippee!!!!!!!  The numbers used to seem so daunting and unobtainable, but not anymore; I see myself at my perfect weight again.

I am on target to reaching my treadmill goal; yesterday I walked for 15minutes without feeling like the sun would never shine again. I had class last night; remember those menacing stairs I dreaded, well I climbed those bad-boys instead of taking the elevator and I didn’t pass out at the top. Yippee!!!!!!!  I may even tack on 5 minutes of the elliptical machine to my routine; I’m feeling frisky.

I’m progressing and I’m proud. I’m also not crazy and know that this will take a couple of years…if you want to ride hop on let’s go!

iPod here I come.

As always, be well CF “Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in feeling creates love.” — Lao Tzu Watch me on Youtube

Drum Roll Please….Introducing, The Chaotic Fat Move-A-Thon

It’s a move-a-thon people….move that ass, come on, you can do it. Self-motivation is the name of this game. If you are beginning an exercise program after years of living a sedentary lifestyle (like me) and are used to rewarding your couch potato behind with “Chips & Salsa” because you walked 10 steps to the fridge, this move-a-thon is for you! 

That’s exactly where I am right now. I am trying to move as much as I can, for instance, I sit at a desk in my office all day, but I have music playing all the time and one day I just got up and started dancing. No-one can see me, the door is closed and the music isn’t very loud. It was awesome! So I do it everyday, I just get up and start dancing when the music strikes me. I also have a set of resistance tubes that I use for strength training a couple times a week. I’m getting it together folks…

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As always, be well CF “Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in feeling creates love.” — Lao Tzu Watch me on Youtube

Even my hair hurts

Everything on my body hurts right now. I did part two of my exercise last night before I went to class (I started taking a graphic design class last night). I was good for 10 minutes on the treadmill which is great because I only expected to be able to do 2-5minutes. That was not the end of my workout, I drove to class and had to park far from the school, which in the grand scheme of things is a good thing. I parked, scarfed down my dinner ( a Wendy’s Chicken Caesar Salad (no croutons and I make my own dressing) and headed off to class.

First, I had to climb a hill to get to the first building only to find out that my class is “Up the Hill” in the other building. Needless to say I was virtually out of breath by the time I got to the 2nd building. My purse became a 15lb. weight, I almost left it on the sidewalk to fend for itself. I felt like Fred Flinstone working in the rock quarry. Once I got to the top of the steps of course I had to sit my ass down to catch my breath; all of a sudden I break out in a sweat like you wouldn’t believe.  Finally, I walk through the front door sweating like a sow on the run in eastern North Carolina in the middle of summer — where it is so damn hot, you can see the heat. It is not a “Dry Las Vegas Heat,”  which I’ve never quite understood; when I went to Vegas it was hot as hell and I was no more comfortable. I’m just an air conditioning kind of girl. In other words, I like the Fall.

Anyway, when I finally get my parking pass and reader card, I ask where my class is located and of course it’s on the 2nd floor which at this point seems like the 100th floor. As I wiped the sweat from my brow once again I asked is there an elevator? YES was the answer. Thank You God.

So, class lets out at 9:30pm, I walk to my car, stop at the local Walgreens and head home. Inside my front door and the first thing I see are stairs, my nemisis for the night. Up the steps I go; I fell into my bed. I couldn’t get comfortable, every position hurt and I had a difficult time falling asleep, but, I did.

Waking up the next morning I knew there would be some aching, but I couldn’t unbend stuff. The only things that didn’t hurt were my eyes, but I got up and started my day knowing that exercise would be on the to-do list. And I did, Yea Me!

As always, be well CF “Kindness in words creates confidence, kindness in thinking creates profoundness, kindness in feeling creates love.” — Lao Tzu Watch me on Youtube

Pilates…Oh My!

Today I had my first workout in what felt like years. I’m doing it in two parts and I just finished the first. I tried pilates and I could barely do the moves but it was fantastic. I tried very hard and I am so proud of myself for the effort. It was awesome, I broke a sweat and everything. I can’t wait to do it again tomorrow.

I am using the Pilates beginning mat workout by GAIAM with Ana Cabán. Ana makes you feel comfortable and she is so non-threatening. She gives you a sense of being in your body and you want to do better, to meet the challenge. Joseph Pilates says the following and I am going to hold him to it:

  1. 10 Sessions – feel better
  2. 20 Sessions – look better
  3. 30 Sessions – new body

By the 30th session I will have the routine perfected. I am really so excited. Probably more because I didn’t make up some excuse not to exercise and I followed through. I mean, I looked ridiculous, but I feel good now. This is actually making me cry. I weigh so much and most of the time I can’t see the other side but today I can see. This sounds so cliche, but today is the first day of… a new attitude, a new purpose, a new thought process; it has taken me a long time to get here. My determination has become so palpable I can almost touch it. Things are going to change for me now…I AM A HEALTHY BODY

I also want to thank all of you guys who take the time out of your busy day to read what I write; I don’t feel so alone. Thanks so much.

This afternoon is part two – treadmill, elliptical machine or both. Wish me luck!

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